last night.

someone called me a "lesbian ellen degeneres"... and i cried (a lot).

for the record, isn't it already known that ellen is a lesbian. and i have short hair, so get the fuck over it. his name was james and his beard looked like pubic hair...and he was FAT.

as my girl, rumer willis once said "If people call me a lesbian because I have short hair and I wear jeans instead of dresses, then by all means run with it. I think it's hilarious. I like guys.
" (thanks kate)

people are mean. there's no point in making fun of someone, if you, yourself, look like a beast. fat pubic hair beard man, you suck. thanks for making me cry.

i hate when people are stressed out and they turn into huge assholes and are rude as shit towards you.

let's be serious.

this is going to be amazing. i cannot wait! megan fox is quite possibly the hottest woman alive btw

my favorite scene from the notebook.

i watched this last night. god, i love this movie.

this is amazing.

pumpkins.

this weekend we're planning on getting a zipcar and heading to a pumpkin patch to go pick some pumpkins, run in corn mazes, and do exactly what i used to do around this time as a little kid. i love the fall. it feels like summer right now, but i'm sure the cold is almost here.

yesterday was...major success! it went really well and now i have tomorrow to worry about and then hopefully a major change will be certain. last night i went out with my favorite lesbians (and kathy and jes) to the levee in brooklyn and then angels and kings in the east village. they were filming the real world at angels and kings; it was hilarious. the cast looks awful, except for there is one girl that is really sweet and enjoyable to talk to...she emailed me today to come dj high voltage. so hopefully, that will work out. mel ended up spending the night and we stayed up until 6 am doing who knows what. we waited for dim to bring us home some sandwiches, which tasted like crap...but at 6 am, we didn't mind. today i mailed some thank you cards and i spent an hour or two at mel's coffee shop. i got this chai tea which was seriously the best chai i've ever had. now i'm relaxing and will be refurbishing furniture later...really exciting.

update.

really nervous. incredibly, ridiculously, retardedly nervous for tomorrow. anxiety has taken on a new name.